Tomorrow Starts a New Me

So, it's been a long time coming, but I have made a decision. Tomorrow I will attend my first weight watchers meeting. Why? Many reasons...allow me to share.

1. I have a ton of weight/diet related illnesses in my family. I have diabetes on both sides of the family and do not wish to succumb to the disease.

2. I am a stress/moody eater. If I have a bad day, what do I turn to? Sweets/Candy/Chocolate.

3. I have no portion control what so ever. There are some nights where I eat and eat and eat and don't even feel full.

4. When calculating my BMI, I do come up as obese. Now granted, I know that it does not take into account muscle it is just straight up calculating numbers, but that worries me. I need to get myself back into a healthy range.

5. My final reason, I'm just not happy when I look at myself in the mirror. I have put on 20 or so pounds since I left VMI and got married. When I left VMI, it was the first time that I was not being forced to exercise and so I didn't (not saying that I was the stud athlete at VMI, in fact I was far from it, but I did have guidelines that I had to do). It was so nice to just bum around and do what I want. Not to mention that when I left, I now had access to a kitchen 24/7! I have had to buy "big" clothes and I don't like it. I do not like going into stores and trying on clothes to come to the conclusion that I'm too big for them. I'm seeing numbers on the scale that I've never seen before and quite honestly they scare me.

So, to try and regain some control of my eating habits, I will be joining a friend and attending Weight Watchers. I have to say that I'm a little ashamed about needing to go. For the longest time I protested, why do I need to pay someone to weigh me, but after listening to her talk, it sounds like so much more than that. A real support group, because let's face it, I love my husband and all, but he can eat and eat and eat and he will lose weight, I look at food and POOF, it's evident on the scale! So, having a support system there, that has been there and done this will be of great help to me.

I recently had my hours switched at work. I wasn't overly happy with it because like most folks I'm a creature of habit and change is BAD, but it's actually working out quite well in my personal life (shhh, don't tell anyone at work!) But, because I go in later, I am able to take my puppy dog for 2 loops around the block in the morning which is 1.2 miles. Now that I'm getting home later, when I walk in the door, I grab my shoes and take him back out around the block for 3 (we'll see how many it ends up being with days getting shorter) to total 3 miles for the day. What is also helping at the moment and we'll see how long this lasts, is that I put it on my calendar that I carry around with me as well as my Google Calendar and have alerts sent to my phone. It's a constant reminder that I need to be walking. Now, the pitfall is I also said that I was going to lift weights every other day and on my days off from lifting I would do pilates. I haven't quite gotten that far, so I guess I'll try again for next week.

So, I'm excited and nervous at the same time to start attending these meetings. Nervous because what happens if the weight doesn't come off? But, excited to give it a shot.